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I think I was molested as a child, but i can’t remember anything… please help me?

GenderFxck Asked: I think I was molested as a child, but i can’t remember anything… please help me?

People have asked my mom my whole life if I was ever sexually or physically abused because I was so shy and timid and wouldn't look anyone in the eyes, and I always assumed it was just my nature. When my mom describes me, however, she says I used to be a very honery, confident child, and I've seen home videos that seem to support that. I started telling my mom, "Mommy, I'm depressed, and I don't know why," when I was in probably second grade, and I've always figured that it was either just some mild form of a disorder or that I was just a kid who didn't know how to communicate how I felt. In third grade, I told my teacher I was a boy and only got up when the boys were called during games and whatnot, and my parents questioned if I was molested, probably due to that, but still thought I should mention it. In fourth grade, I started letting a dog my brother and I had found lick me down there and hump my leg, and I remember thinking, "You dirty, nasty, f***ing whore," at an age when I was still afraid of people who cussed like that. My mom walked in one day and saw it, and just stood there for a moment, looked to the table chair and saw my jeans were thrown off on it, and then looked at me, hugging the dog to hide my bare parts. She didn't bring it up later nor has she ever. I continued doing that with my dog until the end of sixth grade. Since my first, i made sure in every relationship that I was treated badly. Each either told me i wasn't worth being paid attention to when i was depressed ,called me *****/whore/slut/etc, only called me to talk dirty to me and tell me what a disgusting whore I was, used me, and/or cheated on me. I felt sad about the way I was treated sometimes, but it was a numbed sadness, and it satisfied me. I even found a way to make sure it wouldn't get in the way my self-destruction by thinking of myself as three seperate parts who all hated each other: the angry, vile one who hated the sad, weak one, and the one who watched and told me to get out of this, that i needed to get help, that i was better than that. It made it more tolerable. Anyway, moving on… Even though I let people talk down to me and treat me bad in relationships, I'd never done anything physically sexual with a person, and in the relationship before this one, the person fingered me without asking, and i said "stop," but they continued, and i didn't know what to do, but i cried when they left… They did other similar things, too. I broke up with that person after they cheated on me. I've always had a terrible problem with codependence and getting too close to people… And after I get so close, they usually end up leaving. The only person who didn't and who had similar problems, i pushed away after four years even though they probably saved my life. A few months ago, my mom and dad got into an argument over money, and she was drunk and he was asleep in the other room, and I walked in, and she said, "You know, your dad told me when you were little you grabbed him… um, down there, and you said, 'It's okay, daddy; You're asleep. No one will know.' Do you remember that?" And honestly, I didn't remember it at all, but i just when to the restroom and bawled and never went to sleep… My mom has always resented me because i was always closer to my dad, or so i thought, but now, i wonder if it was because of that. I remember she asked him once, "You'd never touch her? Even if it was an accident because you were asleep and you thought it was me, or you were drunk?" and my dad (who's always said he feels that child molesters should be ran over and over and over) yelled, "NO!" I remeber sleeping once with my dad because we had guests over, and he had a ***** in his sleep and was holding me, but i don't want to say i think my dad would ever do something to me. He isn't like that. They also both asked my brother at least once if he ever touched me, and he said no. I just don't know. I'm so lost… Remeber the person I pushed away that I mentioned? Well, we've been best friends for five years, and I pushed her away after she found out i liked her and she told me she felt the same, and in between, i wound up dating the guy who took advantage of me, but now we are past that, and closer than ever. We've been talking about how we were both molested as children, and now I'm almost certain. I match alot of the symptoms, and the more my babe and i work through our past, the more and more I'm convinced… I read somewhere that when someone does repress memories like those, they often surface at a time they feel safe in their life, and I've never felt safer than i do now, with my babe. Other than the guy I was with who went far after I said to stop, do you think I was molested as a child and I blocked it out? If so… How can I trigger my memories? Not knowing is u

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Posted by Zelma Jefferson - January 21, 2012 at 4:41 pm

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I think I was molested as a child, but i can’t remember anything… Please help me?

GenderFxck Asked: I think I was molested as a child, but i can’t remember anything… Please help me?

People have asked my mom my whole life if I was ever sexually or physically abused because I was so shy and timid and wouldn't look anyone in the eyes, and I always assumed it was just my nature. When my mom describes me, however, she says I used to be a very honery, confident child, and I've seen home videos that seem to support that. I started telling my mom, "Mommy, I'm depressed, and I don't know why," when I was in probably second grade, and I've always figured that it was either just some mild form of a disorder or that I was just a kid who didn't know how to communicate how I felt. In third grade, I told my teacher I was a boy and only got up when the boys were called during games and whatnot, and my parents questioned if I was molested, probably due to that, but still thought I should mention it. In fourth grade, I started letting a dog my brother and I had found lick me down there and hump my leg, and I remember thinking, "You dirty, nasty, f***ing whore," at an age when I was still afraid of people who cussed like that. My mom walked in one day and saw it, and just stood there for a moment, looked to the table chair and saw my jeans were thrown off on it, and then looked at me, hugging the dog to hide my bare parts. She didn't bring it up later nor has she ever. I continued doing that with my dog until the end of sixth grade. Since my first, i made sure in every relationship that I was treated badly. Each either told me i wasn't worth being paid attention to when i was depressed ,called me *****/whore/slut/etc, only called me to talk dirty to me and tell me what a disgusting whore I was, used me, and/or cheated on me. I felt sad about the way I was treated sometimes, but it was a numbed sadness, and it satisfied me. I even found a way to make sure it wouldn't get in the way my self-destruction by thinking of myself as three seperate parts who all hated each other: the angry, vile one who hated the sad, weak one, and the one who watched and told me to get out of this, that i needed to get help, that i was better than that. It made it more tolerable. Anyway, moving on… Even though I let people talk down to me and treat me bad in relationships, I'd never done anything physically sexual with a person, and in the relationship before this one, the person fingered me without asking, and i said "stop," but they continued, and i didn't know what to do, but i cried when they left… They did other similar things, too. I broke up with that person after they cheated on me. I've always had a terrible problem with codependence and getting too close to people… And after I get so close, they usually end up leaving. The only person who didn't and who had similar problems, i pushed away after four years even though they probably saved my life. A few months ago, my mom and dad got into an argument over money, and she was drunk and he was asleep in the other room, and I walked in, and she said, "You know, your dad told me when you were little you grabbed him… um, down there, and you said, 'It's okay, daddy; You're asleep. No one will know.' Do you remember that?" And honestly, I didn't remember it at all, but i just when to the restroom and bawled and never went to sleep… My mom has always resented me because i was always closer to my dad, or so i thought, but now, i wonder if it was because of that. I remember she asked him once, "You'd never touch her? Even if it was an accident because you were asleep and you thought it was me, or you were drunk?" and my dad (who's always said he feels that child molesters should be ran over and over and over) yelled, "NO!" I remeber sleeping once with my dad because we had guests over, and he had a ***** in his sleep and was holding me, but i don't want to say i think my dad would ever do something to me. He isn't like that. They also both asked my brother at least once if he ever touched me, and he said no. I just don't know. I'm so lost… Remeber the person I pushed away that I mentioned? Well, we've been best friends for five years, and I pushed her away after she found out i liked her and she told me she felt the same, and in between, i wound up dating the guy who took advantage of me, but now we are past that, and closer than ever. We've been talking about how we were both molested as children, and now I'm almost certain. I match alot of the symptoms, and the more my babe and i work through our past, the more and more I'm convinced… I read somewhere that when someone does repress memories like those, they often surface at a time they feel safe in their life, and I've never felt safer than i do now, with my babe. Other than the guy I was with who went far after I said to stop, do you think I was molested as a child and I blocked it out? If so… How can I trigger my memories? Not knowing is u

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Posted by Zelma Jefferson -  at 4:41 pm

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Insomnia for weeks now….help!?

Momof2 Asked: Insomnia for weeks now….help!?

I'm 32 year olds and hae been suffering from insomnia for a few weeks now. Its especially been bad for the past 2 weeks, where I have gotten almost no sleep every night. Its the weirdest thing, I'll suddenly feel a little tired around 9pm or so…will go try and go to bed, close my eyes and yawn a bit for the first minute of so, then the yawning stops and I'm wide awake. I do tend to get my mind going at night which has caused sleeping issues before, but lately I've thought that I've been doing better to clear my mind. But anyway, Ifeel like hell during the day. I'm not depressed and don't think I've been stressed lately.
I've tried warm baths, cal-mag pills, eating foods with tryptofan, avoiding caffeine, reading and avoiding TV, trying to go to sleep at the same time every night.
I've taken benadryl (which used to work but no longer does), nyquil (because I feel a cold coming on) melatonin and got a prescription for ambien 10 mg. The ambien is the only med that (sometimes) helps me to sleep, other times it doesn't work at all. I've only had about 5 pills during the past 2 weeks and am hesitant to take it every night as I don't want to become dependent on a sleeping pill.

What is wrong with me? I'm a mom of 2 and its extremely hard for me to get though the day with 2 toddlers, I'm very cranky & irritable and hate being this way. What should I do, go back to the doc? But aren't they just going to try and medicate me with another sleeping pill? I want to get back to sleeping again without the use of prescription medication…

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Posted by Zelma Jefferson - October 19, 2011 at 5:20 pm

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Middle school SUCKS SO MUCH?

Wily Asked: Middle school SUCKS SO MUCH?

And I thought elementary was bad >_> at elementary people were having boyfriends and girlfriends but it still kind of fun and i had a lot of friends and people was nice. 6 th grade >_> every ***** person had a boyfriend or girlfriend and i was sooooo left out. The girls were fake bitches. The boys were ……7th grade……… I was more like " i'm gonna kill that hoe "The boys in my bus WERE SO PERVY I was talking to my REAL friends and this boy yelled MINE IS 7 INCHES. Then the bus was quite. All awkward and stuff. Some other day the boy said you should put a piercing down there so i can lick………..I was like WTF I don't even want to talk about 8th grade >_>

HERE"S A SMALL LIST I"LL WRITE THE THINGS I HATE ABOUT SCHOOL
gotta wake up early
2 much work
being around ppl i dont like
more rules 2 follow
-the kids who do sports get special treatment
-the teachers profile the kids
-the food sucks
- the anti bullying system doesn't work
- the teachers can be sexist or raceist and get away with it
- teachers can use their cellphones. Kids can't
- teachers can punish you even if you have done nothing wrong
- your not aloud to defend your self if someone else attacks you
- they do fire drills in the winter
- the chairs are hard on the back and spine
- the teacher can give 2 and a half hours of home work instead of an hour worth and get away with it
- teachers are aloud to take your property without your permission.
- you have 2 minutes to go from one class to another
- the rich/popular kids act like they can do what ever they want (and they get away with it)
- your not aloud to have any flavord drinks in class untill high school, just water.
- if they see any entertainment device, even if its not on, they can take it
- kids have been suspended for following the day of silence (the day of silence is where people take an oath of silence on a certin date to represent what the silence the homosexual comunnity suffers in)
- the parent are blind to what their kids go through at school untill a school shooting happens or untill a kid kills them self so they can get away
- the teacher can keep you after school for no reason
- a kid can get punish for what someone else does
- their takeing away dodge ball
- their takeing away all free time besides a short lunch break
- they make more fuss over how you hold your pencil instead of teaching you how to spell with it
- during standerdize testing, all they give you for a snack is disgusting cheese
- most classrooms only have a fan to cool down a class room of 19-24 kids + adult(s)
- the lockers are small
- most of the school computers are old and very buggy
- coloring homework . I have better things to do then color in a map
- 5 days a week. School should only be a 4 day at most thing
- they do not recognize such things as depression and insomnia as an illness
- your not aloud to your own political opinion
- teachers can make you write in cursive, if you dont they can tear up your paper and make you do it again
- Most thing you learn you never need . Like S.S. WE WILL NEVER TALK ABOUT WARS( Ex. world war II ) WHEN WE GET A JOB
what other people think of the school over what's on the inside in other words they're really shallow.
im forced to learn stuff i dont want and is most likely useless
too much drama
It's boring, even lunch time.
I have to do quiz(s) in P.E.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel awkward changing in front of people in the lockers
teachers and stupid and retarded
it's boring
well you get the point and what's your reasons
today i spend 3 hours doing homework…

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Posted by Zelma Jefferson - September 24, 2011 at 7:40 am

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