Asked: Diagnosed with bipolar disorder?

After seeing a family doctor today for what I thought was a sleep disorder, I was diagnosed with adult onset ADHD, sever anxiety disorder and severe bipolar disorder. I'm a 22 year old mother of two with no insurance. My doctor suggested the name of a therapist to me and a list of drugs to research. I hardly get by as it is, I have no money for counseling. I did research the list of medications like I was told, and a lot of them scare me. I'm simply at a loss.

Asked: struggling badly… loosing sense of reality……… im 21?

Please be sensitive. i have a history of trauma since i was 11. I have been in and out of therapy since i was 13. one of my friends committed suicide recently and two weeks later i was at a club and was sexually assaulted (he didnt fully rape me, but he rubbed my clit in front of other people". I was drinking alcohol and blacked out at some point i thought i was drugged because i was feeling sick for 2 days after that. I havent been sleeping well. I have been staying up late in the morning. I probably get 3-6 hours of sleep. Anyways, i sometimes feel nauseous when i wake up and when i eat so i throw it up (purposefully). I've had an eating disorder before, so that's how i cope. I also have IBS. Today I had an accident on myself :/. My stomach hasn't been feeling well so ive had diarrhea. Anyways, i feel paranoid like somebody is watching me and following me and I feel scared to be alone in the night. I was in class today and felt like i was disassociating with reality. I just felt like i wasnt there. Sometimes i space out and my mood has been fluctiating. From sad to happy… to nothing. Sometimes I feel invisible and do drink alcohol to a risky point. I just feel like i might have developed something worse from all these years of struggling with depression. I was diagnosed with major depression then dysthimia. In the past ive had episodes of psychosis where i was seeing and hearing things. Ive been hospitalized for being "suicidal" but i really wasnt. Anyways… i think over the years ive developed bipolar disorder or depression. I lash out at my family and even though i used to love my sister i hate her now and feel anger towards her. I'm seeing a counselor, but should i go to a psychiatrist? im scared i dont know what's going on???

Asked: Sometimes I question whether I’m entirely sane?

Some things that might contribute are being diagnosed with ADD and stress disorders for which I take meds (adderal for ADD), I get about 4 hours of sleep a night (I'm 17), I've had 2 concussions, and I am currently coming out of "severe depression". Every now and then, maybe once every few weeks, I'll have a night where I don't feel entirely..sane, to be blunt. What I mean is I won't be able to focus at all, not like I'm bored, or keep getting distracted, but my mind jumps from one thing to the next so fast that I literally can't keep up, and my arms and hands will shake. The interesting thing is, I've played piano for 10 years, and these nights usually come after a particularly frustrating night of piano, and the feeling is amplified by piano, and when my hands shake, my fingers move as if i'm playing piano and it's really hard to control them. So I usually end up sitting in my room listening to piano music while rocking back and forth, hands shaking uncontrollably until it stops (usually about an hour). So yeah, should I be worried about this? Because when these nights come I genuinely do question if i'm entirely sane. Long story short, this song is what it feels like in my head.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOV243bFw

Asked: Do I have something wrong with me?

Recently been majorly fatigued.
In the past 2 years I have experienced insomnia ,constant urinating, fatigue, even had blurry vision at one stage, I am usually very physicalwith sports, and am eating good food and consuming over 3000 calories a day and losing weight. but I have even cut down my physical activity bymore than 50% and still overly tired and fatigued.

Been to the doctor and had a urine test and also a blood sample was sent off for analyis.

Doctor has told me I have chlamydia, and has got me very worried.. Im anxiously waiting on my blood test now but does anyone have any idea what it could be?

Asked: Having Insomnia Problems?

I couldn't fall asleep one night so I went on yahoo answers and asked how to sleep and someone said keep all your lights on and drink lots of coffe. The insomnia has been getting worse though. Please help?

Asked: what puts people to sleep?

it's been a long, long time since i went to sleep before midnight. what methods or remedies can i use to make myself go to sleep? my lack of sleep makes focusing in school difficult. i think i may have insomnia, but i'm not sure.

Asked: Depersonalization feel weird when talking to girlfriend?

I'm 17 years old and have generalized anxiety disorder. I used to have allot of depersonalization and derealization but it usually passed over time. Lately I've had MAJOR problems with sleeping and have had constant depersonalization as a result. What my main concern at the moment however is, a few nights ago me and my girlfriend got into bad arguments two nights in a row which caused me major stress, and as a result my anxiety levels increased. Me and her have been together for 11 months almost a year, and we used to argue allot but at the end of the day still loved each other. But anyway, after those two nights we didn't talk much, because she had work and family time, etc. While she was out doing all that stuff and we weren't talking I was in (and still currently am) a major state of anxiety and all I could think about was wanting to feel normal again, because I was doing so well before those arguments. Well we've already made up for those arguments and aren't mad at each other anymore, but now when I talk to her or am with her I feel so…weird..like I haven't talked to her I a long time. And same thing when I think about her..it's like I feel like we were never together or something..the feeling is so hard to describe.. It's really scaring me because I really love her and don't want to lose feelings for her, which is what I think is happening, but at the same time it could be the anxiety..another thing is that we still haven't talked much lately..like we used to talk to each other all day long, but the past few days we talk briefly at school because I feel anxious so didn't talk much, and after school we only talk right before she goes to sleep (I've had to much trouble sleeping lately as well). Could I feel like this because we don't talk as much anymore? If so do I just need to talk to her more so I can "get used" to her again? Or is this all a result of my anxiety? I'm scared..I know deep down that I love her..but I feel as if she's not there anymore..

Asked: Poll: please help me smile, I really need it?

My mental issues are getting worse… I have bipolar disorder, cyclothymia, seasonal affective disorder, and social anxiety… I'm not on any medication. The only way I can sleep is by crying till I get too tired. My friend is on some medication for bipolar disorder, which brings me to my next point.
She's been having suicidal thoughts more and more frequently, and today she was admitted into a mental hospital. She will be there for 2 weeks… but she's everything to me.
Sorry this is so long but I need a smile.

Asked: I hate life..im just done?

I honestly hate life and want to die it makes no sense to me, im like the nicest person and i did nothing wrong people are so hypocrites.. I was born out of wedlock even though were Christians and its a sin my parents never really dated they were just boyfriend and girlfriend and they broke up when i was a baby(thought babies were a blessing). My Older Half sister told me to wait until i get married but look at her she never got married and now is pregnant i dont even like kids or NEVER WANT ANY plus I wasn't treated right.. I wanted to live with my nana but my cousin haves a baby and now there is no space. so when i turn 18 i'll have to find somewhere else to live.. i been through so much hell.. my mom loves me but she is fussy and sometimes can be selfish. and don't get me started on my dad i was never treated right. I think I was born by accident, I have no middle name and I know im spoiled because i get almost everything that most kids don't have but its not about that. No one understands how I feel. and at school i was always bullied even in the 6th and 7th grade. Now if people mess with me I just want to stab them until they die and laugh at them(that is what goes in my mind) sometimes because im just sick and tired of everyone. I don't have a boyfriend and never had one and im 16 no one thinks im pretty or attractive they all say im too shy and guys act like jerks. I don't even date black guys and don't like their personality.(i find white guys hot and all around except my race, not trying to be racist) at high school I feel lonely because all my friends have boyfriends even 3 of my friends are BI and have girlfriends and I'm Bi curious and wear dark clothing, emo style and I'm black and like anime.. and i'm quiet I been judge a lot and people take things out on me when it's their problem and I'm probably going to die alone.. or sooner I have EMD(Emotional Disorder) sometimes when i get frustrated i cry myself to sleep and sometimes want to die.. no one would care if i die anyways and I don't know what to believe anymore because people lie to me.. and i'm always lonely. about to be anti social because im done with people especially my annoying as hell father who fusses like a girl this is what he does in life.. even my best friends lie to me but i never ever lied to them.. and my orientation is still developing I had kinda had a boyfriend but he wasn't so sure and told us to be siblings on the safe side and we went out for like a week we never even dated or called it official because we never hugged or kissed and i was suppose to go to the movies with him but i couldn't because i had no ride… I need someone to talk to because im lonely and I don't think i can take it anymore, i know its part of life but it's a f*cked up world and I don't want to be in it or part of it so i'm done. I been through so much and don't even deserve it and i kinda hate people so yeah here's my story there is more but i'll post later for different questions.. and I forgot to mention that sometimes I dont even believe in relationships because of so much drama and crap that makes no sense

Asked: why would i be asked to go back to the hospital after having a sleep apnea assessment?

i went to the hospital in London, Ontario Canada…. to do a sleep assessment(feb14) cause i stop breathing for 40-60seconds at a time. I have not received ANY info on my test at all except i know gotta go back Oct 8th for some reason …. Please help me understand why i have to do this!