I’m having a dilemma. How much do you value something valuable to you?
Scripts Asked: I’m having a dilemma. How much do you value something valuable to you?
Most of the time, I feel wasted.
Not to brag or anything, but I am smart. My IQ is above average. I am good at sciences and maths. My artistic skills are above average. When I had my primary education, I was one of the best students. I joined a lot of math competitions, and I hadn't lost one of them.
I got the privilege to go to a special secondary school. Everyone from my school are intelligent kids, and suddenly, I stopped being one of the smartest. I grew more and more stupid in science and math, but my artistic skills started to excel. I won a fair number of competitions in art, mostly theaater and visual arts. Even though i loved art before, I love it now more than ever.
I lost all my interest in boring science. I'm fair in biology, bad at physics, and sucked so much at chemistry. But I was good in arts. In fact, I was one of the best. I can play the guitar, the piano, the flute, the harmonica, the drums, a bit of the violin, and a bit of the harp. I was still good the social sciences. I can draw well, paint a bit, and people liked my compositions. But most of all, I make a good theater artist– I loved performing arts. In secondary school, people have been asking me why I did not go to a school for the arts. And even I did not know the answer.
I became deeply in love with the theater. Oh, and I forgot to mention that I've been diagnosed with maladaptive daydreaming disorder. Since I started doing a bit of theater, it became less. I spent more time thinking of how to make a good show. It has been a great " outlet of creativity" than pacing while daydreaming.
But then, I can't take theater arts in college. Like every other special secondary school for the gifted in science, we signed a contract to take a science course. But I really, really, REALLY want arts to be my future. I would sleep in the streets, eat once a week, or do whatever it takes to be a theater artist someday.
I thank my secondary school for making me realize that this is not what I want. It is like the coin toss. When the coin is in the air. you suddenly know what you're hoping for.
I want to be famous. I want to be successful. But what if I'm not good enough? Is arts the right choice? What if I don't make it? But again, what if I can, and I'm just too afraid to take a stand? Would I be much more wasted?
My parents don't want me to be an artist. They want me to do something related to the computers. "It is the computer age", they would say. They say all the money is in the computer industry. But what if I don't care?
I am wondering, if theater means so much to me, why can't I have the courage now to go against the world and follow my dream? Why?
I have a few weeks left to decide, and my mind is literally into overdrive. I don't know what to do. I need your advice.
Yes, I think you have anorexia. You should see a doctor so they can help you
A problem is something that interferes with you living a normal, healthy life. So although it isn't severe, I think you may be beginning to develop or may already have an eating disorder. I suggest you get help before it spirals out of control. However your weight is healthy for your height so you can't have anorexia yet, it would be an EDNOS. Learn healthy, sustainable ways of eating that can help you keep the weight off without starvation. I suggest looking into vegetarianism or veganism
Yes, you very clearly have an eating disorder.
Talk to your doctor.Are you in college now?Go to the campus health center.
A medical professional can help you free yourself so that food does not control your life.
No. It sometimes it is good to eat food but not too much that you intend to get sick. Hell, it's normal for people. I might have the same problem but with caffeine instead. It's okay to lose weight. 102 pounds is far too less for a woman or man. It won't hurt if you eat cakes, meats or other fattening foods. I weight 153Ibs. You can pretty much say that I'm fat.